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I am mundane and magical, Silly and serious. I am an underachiever who suspects that someday in the eternities I may yet blossom and even fruit. I am a collector of spirits and essences, a studier of mood and nuance.I have many many faults and yet I've always been loved. I am a good friend, but I will let you go if you so desire. I believe in Somewhen. I laugh easily and cannot often cry, which I know is a Flaw. Like You, I am a work in progess.

Sunday, August 25, 2013

The only reason I am taking the time to write now is that I am waiting for my hair stylist to come over. She messaged me that she was on her way. Really, if I was not so shaggy and my hair wasn't in my eyes, I would not be taking the time to write. I really need to manage my time severely but it seems I am not doing so well at it. I find that I can't do much homework while I am working and I had an expectation that I would be able to, so that's a huge chunk of time gone. Even though I only work 3 days. Sat is 8 hours but Monday and Tues need not be since I am just backup then.
 I woke up this morning and leapt straight into Environmental Science homework. That took a good chunk of time even though it wasn't terribly difficult. This is a class I am taking because I am very concerned about the environment. I fall short n many ways as far as being green goes but the attitude of the US is dismal. I truly think that as a species we need to give some concentrated attention and behavior changing to our ways of dealing with the earth or we will not be here long.
Now, i say I leapt right into the Environmental Science homework, but in truth I sent an email to my history professor first. And it was merely a playful email, not really related to the class, but he had made a comment on an assignment I turned in (he liked it) and mentioned i would love the course. i mailed back that I was already enjoying it immensely and he wrote back "Sweet"  which for various reasons seemed to have tickled my brain so much that I got very little sleep caught in a thought tangent cloud that went EVERYWHERE. I felt that since he triggered it it was only fair he share in a small amount. I am curious to see what if any response there will be.
We have a quiz in history tomorrow, labeling the states on a blank US map. I have glanced at a map today and do not know how I am going to do on that. When I was a small child I knew them but I sure as heck don''t now. We also have a paper due tomorrow night and I have not yet done the requisite reading.
Then I will turn my attention to chemistry. I seriously need to work on conversions. I also need to memorize some prefixes, 35 element symbols and names from the periodic table, whether they are metals or non metals, some other definitions from the course, and I am not sure what else. I have chemistry lab homework due by Tuesday too.
Then there is CIS which i don;t expect to be difficult but which I expect to take up large, precious chunks of time. I resent it even though I know these skills would be good to know. I equate it with the LIB class, but I knw it's more useful. Ah Kim is here

Friday, August 9, 2013

Made a cherry cheesecake at about 2:30 am. Not normal, but tasty.

Would like to groom Sammie Sue today being as I am off and school is fast approaching. Would like to have her looking good before school starts. I'd like to assess how the work/school thing is going to go without having her in the background of my mind. On the other hand, I don't want to be pushy with Deb. Oh well.

It looks like my pregnant friend has found a job opportunity she is excited about. She is asking for help procuring some professional maternity clothes and I wish I could help her! I hate being broke always. She is also talking with her oldest sister again. I was really worried about that, but the rift was over a fairly serious matter. I don't know how that resolved but i am so glad they are talking! Looks like Bruce was right about more opportunities for her in a larger city with an established network.

My co-worker who was surrounded by the cops? And is being garnished? And the cops show up at the business owner's house? Apparently this is over $250 unpaid traffic fines. It seems wildly excessive to me! The guy is working 3 jobs and just lost his car. Wow.

Not sure what I will do today. Probably not a lot. Still tired, but not as tired as I was the past 2 days. Maybe I'll give Dude a bath.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Just a few minutes but I wanted to write a little bit of what's going on in my life. First I've been feeling pretty yucky physically. That sucks. But plugging on. Dropped my yoga and qigong and I am sorry about that but it is what it is. Still thinking I need to get back to juicing. But I haven't yet. Been working quite a bit. One of my co-workers is going through a wringer! I don't know him well but he looks so sweet and affable. He had asked me if I would work for him so he could go to a wedding in Salt Lake. he went, he enjoyed the wedding but his $2000 car's radiator went out and he ruined the head gaskets so it would need $4000 worth of repairs. THEN he came back on a shuttle and while at work the police showed up at work (I have heard this is because of outstanding traffic warrants) They waited there trying to get him in for about THREE HOURS and they also showed up en masse at the business owners house where she refused to talk to him. This sounds way more serious to me that outstanding traffic warrants but this is St George... Now they are garnishing his wages. The business owner was shocked that they had her cell phone number.Actually I find the whole thing pretty scary.

In other news without studying ONCE (I had intended too go over the whole physiology book and review algebra this summer but I got a job instead and did NO studying) I took the Kaplan test for admittance into the nursing program. I was not even going to take it since I hadn't prepared, but I thought at least i would have an idea of what to expect, so Ii took it and incredibly I passed it. Not with high marks (the highest anyone I know had heard of anyone getting was an 86, my score was 77, passing is 74.) I was, as I do, celebrating the fact that i passed and bemoaning my poor score when I asked a friend who did study what she got, she got 76. I can be insensitive. Anyway, that test is done and I submitted my application for the nursing program. I am supposed to know in about 10 days if I will be admitted for the Spring semester. I have to take and do well in chemistry this Fall or that would nix me. We shall see. I am increasingly worried about how i would be as a nurse. I am not high energy and I am squeamish. So I am wondering if I am in the right course of study. But I am proceeding, so I will let inertia carry me until I come up against a bad obstacle.. I want to be qualified to do SOMETHING that will support Bruce and me. I don't think he will be able to work again and I know he doesn't want to and it's my turn to support us, as soon as I can. So i have pressure there.

Emotionally I feel fragile and feel strained at the slightest stresses. I have been avoiding a loyal friend and I think this is because I am stressed. I need to contact her! And...My Favorite Person's daughter (I will never understand why he left her and her sisters, and it's not like I can ask) is entering the second trimester of pregnancy and she is homeless. Every in me screams to ask her if she would want to come stay with us. everything that is but respect for Bruce who does not like this idea. He pointed out that her family is up there. There are better services he thinks in a city. I really want to ask but I could not do it unless Bruce agreed. And he doesn't. Also I don't know what the relationship is like with the father of this child. I am remembering being young and thinking I was pregnant and how utterly alone I felt. Telling my dysfunctional family was not something I was looking forward to and the guy was about as caring about this as, well, he wasn't. Anyway i am thinking of this young woman and wishing i could do something to help her. I can all too easily imagine some of the things she might be feeling and a child is a huge responsibility. Well this is all I have time to write about now. Didn't get a lot said.