I miss writing, I feel like I don't have enough time. Finding more time for things I really want to do is on my list of of priorities.
Things are going well here and that makes me happy. My mom and Bruce, who had never met prior to her moving in like each other. My dogs have not killed her dogs. The dogs are getting along pretty well. Max would like me to be his human, he gets jealous of PJ and sometimes acts on that. If he gets jealous of Jetty Lee she has convinced him to keep quiet about it.
My mom has been grateful and generous and she is not longer saying she wishes she would die every day. She seems healthier to me. We've established a primary care Dr and a nephrologist. I'll be taking her to an eye Dr next week. Her labs have improved a little but according to the Drs there is not a LOT of improvement in the cards. The best we can hope for is stability. She is happy and seems very clear mentally. I'm grateful.
We've formed a relationship with a lawyer and established a trust and a living will. He's helping us find a financial planner and that's been an interesting process. We have one more to listen to, but unless he is VERY impressive I think I know who we'll choose. My mom paid my student loans so I am within $600 of being debt free, unless I owe for taxes. Part of her money will be used to remodel and refurbish the house and we're starting with the yards. Bruce has been interviewing clean up crews (we will be taking out most of the trees and bushes. That's a pretty big job. He's talking to three more people tomorrow and by then I hope he will pick one. We're having a block wall put in to replace the old, rotting cedar fence. And then both yards will be landscaped. I'm envisioning a park-like back yard with lots of flowers. I think my mom will enjoy that, she really misses her humming birds. I'd enjoy it too and I will like spending time with her without her TV on. That thing is on 24 hours a day! But I am pleased that's she has started to turn out the light at night. She has been sleeping with a light on for years.
We have so much stuff to go through in the house that it will take a little time to get that into a workable position, but Bruce is also interviewing general contractors. He wants to get a feel for someone he feels can do a good job before explaining the extent of "the List" Probably we will start with replacing the roof which has been leaking due to bad installation of a HVAC unit. I'm sort of scared to see what the damage is there.I'm getting an estimate for solar panels and batteries.
We also have an infestation of mice and I know we are not the only ones on the block to have this problem. Bruce has become adept at catching them and I transport them to a far off field where they probably die. But we think it's time to call in professionals once we've gone through the excess of stuff so any holes can be blocked.
My mom teases me about my cooking. She is well satisfied with breakfasts but dinners are not always up to snuff. Part of this is because she only seems to want variations of hamburger. She won't eat chicken and doesn't much care for pork. Once in awhile she will eat fish. I was getting a wide variety of vegetables but she really just wants the mixed vegetables with corn and peas and carrots and green beans. She had a potassium problem and that has restricted man of her favorite foods. Bruce tells me I should force her to eat right. I'd be more inclined to do that to HIM. My mom is an adult and both she and I are aiming for quality of life over quantity. Hence, I've made some of her favorite foods even if she "shouldn't" eat them and she is pretty reasonable about not overdoing.
She doesn't go out very often but she has "lost power" a couple of times. I am pretty sure this is not a blood sugar problem since I make sure she eats well. It's likely a blood PRESSURE problem, but it could still kill her. She is very frank speaking about death but I'd like her to have some happy time. I got a transport wheelchair and I leave it in the trunk. She is not hep about using it but it makes me feel much better to have it if she becomes weak.
This entry is more like a laundry list than I wanted it to be. I thought I might focus more on spirit. I just finished a book called Dying To Be Me and it made a lot of sense to me. I will be revisiting those ideas and hoping to change my course to be more open to adventure and inspiration and authenticity and kindness.